What’s up peeps? It’s been a while since I have written on my blog, but I have decided that I’m going to show up for myself. I recognized and realized more recently, that writing is my therapy writing is my jam. It is a form of self- healing, a way of processing my thoughts and my feelings journaling. So, have decided after mulling over a couple of different things that I was gonna not only do some blogging and do it consistently, but I’m thinking maybe only just once a week because I want to do things that are reasonable and achievable as a cadence that I can certainly keep up with, but not only just writing, but I have also thought more about um and I don’t know what you call this if it’s oral podcasting or what I’m sure there’s a name for it help me out please but um where I’m going to start just recording my thoughts and posting it on my blog just to share but not only sharing primarily like that secondary right, but primarily to memorialize to capture my life raw moment and yeah and then I was also thinking secondary Sherry with other folks maybe y’all can relate maybe you can’t I don’t know but it could be a great conversation starter during your group time with our fellowship third and I think this is actually really important but you know life you know we’re only here temporarily and I think it would be like what a great I don’t want to say resource, but like something so treasured that my children can have when I’m no longer here on this earth and so um you know when I go to heaven because I do believe in um when we leave this earth because we’re here only here temper that we live eternally I believe in eternal life and um that could either be eternally with Jesus my lord and Savior or eternally away from Jesus and damnation so um anyways I believe because I’m a believer in Christ um of course I will be in heaven, but when I’m no longer here, my kids will have something that they can cherish um and pass down to their children and my grandchildren can have something where wow we really have something from our grandmother, right and so I am feeling like this is the direction the Lord is leading me in and so I’m going to start.
I don’t know what you call it. Is it podcasting? I don’t know I kind of look at it more as voice noting maybe I’m making it my own term voice noting but anyways, if you know what you call that where you’re sharing your thoughts that you’re recording it and you’re posting it let me know because I look at it a little bit differently from podcasting, but maybe it is podcasting but I think I’m going to call it voice noting because I feel like that feels more comfortable to me so here we go today is October 31, 2024 shout out to my lovely beautiful sister Lisa She’s in Florida and she turned 54 today and I’m gonna post a picture of her on my blog.
She looks like she’s 34 I mean she’s just absolutely beautiful and her date her birthday is today so if you can say a prayer a blessing for her that would be wonderful and for her family thank you so much Stay tuned for more.

Over the years, I have struggled with self-worth. I accepted the hand I was dealt, and accepted “fate.” I gave up my dreams of thinking that I would have a normal life, normal loving healthy relationship and tried to make the best out of my circumstances. But, I was so angry inside. I was deeply sad, and felt forgotten and unloved. This anger impacted my health in a significant way.

Do you believe you’re worthy of goodness? Do you really believe it? Often times, there is a disconnect between what we believe in our heart to be true and how our actions live out. One can believe, and still not operate in faith. Belief and faith are similar, but distinct. You can believe all day, yet lack trust and confidence that what you believe in will actually come to fruition.

My faith is all that I have at the end of the day, at the end of this life. Last night, I participated in a healing circle. The facilitator asked the group, “what is weighing you down that needs to be released, and what are you grateful for?” I value being my authentic self. You never know who might gain insight from what you decide to share. As people began to take their turns, I pondered what I should share with a group of strangers.

It was my turn. I shared, that I needed to let go of what others think about my life choices. Some think I’m “lost, hell bound, or confused.” Ultimately, I need to let go of fear, and allowing opinions of others to control me by using the Word of God to condemn, shame, and wrongfully reproof me. I shared that I was grateful for holding on to my faith. I strongly believe, and many have heard this before, that my paternal grandmother, Minnie modeled her faith to me. I had my faith before I became a mother and a wife. I am not going to let the disapproval from others about my life choices deceive me into thinking that I’m not loved by God or that I’m not a child of God, or that I’m a lost soul.

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”  Proverbs 3:5-6

Why is faith so important? For me, its the expectation that there is light at the end of the tunnel; whether that is now on earth or after death. My faith anchors me to my maker, the truth, and life abundance.

As I started the process of re-finding, re-learning the core truths about my faith, it has reminded me that no MAN can take my faith away. Unfortunately, some Christians willingly or unknowingly attack, judge, hurt, and condemn those they should love. It can be difficult to separate what another human afflicts from God’s word. This is especially difficult, when you’ve learned about God from an unhealthy fear perspective, instead of through the lens of love. Love cannot be underestimated when it comes to the Gospel. Throughout the Bible, God’s love permeates.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16

• Faith propels you to the future; shifts you away from problems to the belief that good will come for those who believe;
• Faith gives a powerful narrative for our life;
• Faith anchors us;

I am so ANGRY!